Actor Kim Jung-nan shared an update that she cries every day from "pet loss syndrome."
On the 24th, a video titled "The most perfect homebound Christmas spent with cats: housekeeper Kim Jung-nan overcoming pet loss" was uploaded to Kim Jung-nan's YouTube channel.
That day, Kim Jung-nan decorated a tree in the yard and held a small home party ahead of Christmas. While doing that, the production team surprised Kim Jung-nan, who was decorating the Christmas tree, with ornaments containing photos of her companion cats.
Seeing this, Kim Jung-nan said, "Who made this? It's so pretty," hung the ornaments on the tree, and repeatedly expressed her emotion, saying, "This was prepared by our YouTube team. How did they think of something like this? It's so pretty, what should I do."
A tree filled with the faces of the cats Shiny, Lulu, Mari, Tammy, Leo, Luca and Shinbi was completed, and after finishing her meal, the production team told Kim Jung-nan, "Unnie, we have a gift prepared. Because it's Christmas, we prepared gifts for the cats."
Kim Jung-nan, moved, said, "Really? You prepared this? I didn't prepare anything," and she began opening the gifts the production team had placed under the tree one by one.
The gifts were Tammy's scarf, Luca's toy, Leo's hiding house and bedding for Shinbi. Kim Jung-nan laughed and said, "Because there happen to be so many cats in my house, you must have spent some money buying the gifts, right?" then took out the last gift and said, "There's one left — isn't this Mari's gift? I have a feeling it is. There's no name written on it."
The gift was a frame containing Shiny, Lulu and Mari, who became stars in the sky. Seeing this, Kim Jung-nan burst into the tears she had been holding back and eventually sobbed loudly. In particular, Mari was Kim Jung-nan's first daughter; at age 19 she suffered from pancreatitis and crossed the rainbow bridge on the 28th of last month.
In response, Kim Jung-nan said, "I thought our Mari would pull through this year. Her condition wasn't bad and she ate well... Once pancreatitis hit, it uncontrollably took over her whole body. Mari was too old to overcome it, and in the end she couldn't endure it this time. At that moment I was holding her paw and she held my finger. For nearly 20 years I was truly happy, because of that animal. I believe our Mari was happy too. Because I gave her as much love as possible and did my best, the feelings of regret and guilt are much less. I try to remember only the good memories and try not to be too sad. I think I can do that now," she said with a heavy heart.
Having barely composed herself, Kim Jung-nan playfully said, "Thank you. I was holding it in well, so why make me cry again!" and expressed her emotion, saying, "I like everything. I think the kids will all like it. I think this is the first time I've received a gift on Christmas since kindergarten."
Starting to eat sweet potatoes again, Kim Jung-nan awkwardly said, "I was wailing my heart out until a little while ago, and now I'm eating roasted sweet potatoes," but she confessed, "But when you need to cry, you should cry. If you suppress it too much, it becomes an illness. I cry several times a day. Even just seeing traces of our Mari brings tears. After shedding those tears and pulling myself together and living my life, I get (better)."
[Photo] Kim Jung-nan YouTube, SNS
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