Actress Kim Hyun-sook recalled severe postpartum depression.
On the 18th, the MBN variety show Sokpulisho Dongchimi aired a segment in which the cast discussed the topic "Marriage: are those who are unmarried the winners vs those who are married the winners?".
That day Kim Hyun-sook began her story under the title "What if I run and jump in front of that speeding train?" Opening her mouth amid the cast's worries, Kim Hyun-sook said, "Most women who have given birth will probably feel this: I am the head of the household and bear economic responsibility, so I couldn't afford to rest for a long time."
She went on, "Also, I did Mok-dwaemeok-eun Young-ae for 13 years, and I was an icon of the old maid, so imagine how much pressure I felt when I got married. And the producers waited about a year for me even after I married, so I couldn't take a long break."
Kim Hyun-sook said, "So I gave birth on Jan. 18, and I started working from the second week of March, so I couldn't even rest for two months. Because I lectured at a school in the second week of March, I had to take the KTX to Busan once a week. And I started filming Young-ae in June. At that time there wasn't even a 52-hour limit, so we literally pulled all-nighters shooting. Also, in August I filmed the variety show Real Men and 'enlisted' while filming it. I worked without a moment to rest my joints," she lamented.
She added, "Looking back now, I think this was postpartum depression. So after I had a child, when people asked me what was the hardest part, the obsession that I had to be responsible for the child was the hardest. Also, women entertainers who love their work and were active see their situation change after giving birth. If you breastfeed, you can't sleep, and you have to pump even when you're out. I did the work I loved, so I rested when I wanted to. There used to be a 'cue' and 'cut,' but when raising a child there was no 'cut.'"
Kim Hyun-sook said, "Because of hormonal changes, it was actually terrifying. I didn't know while I was pregnant. I thought, like the mother's generation, if you stay still maternal instinct would come. The guilt arises with thoughts like 'Do I not love my child?' and guilt rushes in. One day I was looking at my child and the house was on the sixth floor of an apartment. Suddenly all kinds of thoughts came to me. What if I jump with the child from the sixth floor? What if I fall from here? All sorts of thoughts come to mind."
Kim Hyun-sook also added, "While waiting for the train to go to Busan, I suddenly thought, what if I run onto the tracks? Looking back now it was depression, and ordinarily I would never have such thoughts. At that time those thoughts came to me without realizing it, and having to endure them was so hard."
Meanwhile, Kim Hyun-sook married a non-celebrity man in 2014 and has one son. The two divorced in Dec. 2020, and Kim Hyun-sook has custody of her son.<
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