Cast member Son Eun-yu of 'Devil's Plan 2' confessed about preparing to become an actress after quitting her job as a lawyer.
On the 27th, a video titled "What I'm doing after quitting my job as a lawyer... | Devil's Plan 2 Son Eun-yu leaving vlog" was uploaded to Son Eun-yu's YouTube channel.
On this day, Son Eun-yu stated, "Today, I want to talk about resigning. I've been contemplating how long I would continue this job, and there's something I originally wanted to do, and before it gets too late, I thought that if I could, I want to challenge myself and make that my career for the rest of my life, so I decided to resign."
He originally dreamed of becoming an actress since childhood, stating, "I actually submitted my profile back in 2019. However, it seems I didn't consider learning to act. Looking back now, I think I was scared. What if I learned and failed? Or what if I loved it too much? I had those thoughts, unconsciously. It doesn't make sense, really. I prepared only my profile without learning and then received an internship offer from a consulting firm, but honestly, I was just circulating my profile without any experience, and who would suddenly pick me out of nowhere? Since I didn't know enough, it was even scarier. Anyway, I kept studying, and when the opportunity came, I decided to go for it."
He said, "So I struggled a lot. I interned at 8 companies about 10 times, and even though I had something I wanted to do, I felt I had to look for another dream, but I couldn't find it. I'm someone for whom the nature of work is very important, so I think I searched very hard. There seemed to be a lingering thirst. Something felt wrong; I thought I couldn't live my life doing this work. So I continued to erase the experiences of things I had tried, and as I kept searching, I thought I should become a prosecutor or an M&A lawyer, and I entered law school with those two dreams."
After preparing for a prosecutor and lawyer career, he decided on a path as an M&A lawyer but realized it wasn't suitable for him. Son Eun-yu stated, "It wasn't that I disliked it or found it boring, but rather it was fulfilling and really good; however, I felt it wasn't a job that truly utilized my strengths but required constant effort to cover my weaknesses." He further said, "So I thought, since I don't know, let's work really hard and enjoy it to see if it's truly suitable for me. I worked incredibly hard. I felt like the term work-life balance didn't exist, as I poured 9 out of what I had into the company and only 1 into exercising and sleeping. That's how I spent my first and second years, and I confirmed that it wasn't suitable for me."
Son Eun-yu said, "Originally, I couldn't say that I would return to my old dream of becoming an actress, but I thought about changing my path to investment. Then one Sunday while working overtime, my younger sibling told me to write for 'Devil's Plan 2', and I wrote it, and it worked out. Until then, I didn't really think much about it. I think I participated without seriously considering what it meant to appear on a survival show since I needed some dopamine. I expected the reaction to be bad. So I spent the second half of last year thinking, 'I guess I can't think about becoming an actress,' and I have friends who are learning acting, and when I talked to them and they said they took acting classes, I felt envious and thought it seemed fun. I didn't know. It continued for several months. I thought, 'Let's try learning it,' so I started acting classes in January this year. But as soon as I started, I thought, 'This isn't good.' It was incredibly fun."
He stated, "At first, I regretted it. I wondered why I didn't do it five years ago, but I think I was able to make the decision now to fully commit without regrets because I have finally seen the best version of myself as a lawyer during those five years. I had been unsure about when to start. While I was at the company, I realized I couldn't continue to juggle things anymore. There are many people in our company who dedicate a large part of their lives to it, so preparing something while being there didn't make sense, and although I hadn't learned it for even eight months, I couldn't spend much time outside of the two hours a week. I didn't and thought I shouldn't. But I wanted to spend more time on this."
He continued, "I was worried that my colleagues, seniors, and juniors who spent time at our company might think I neglected my main job while appearing on broadcast shows. After hearing about it later, I might hear, 'Were you preparing for this?' I was concerned they might feel hurt. That wasn't the case. While I was there, I truly gave my best effort. The reason I mention this is that while their feelings of hurt matter, I also care about the feelings of the clients who entrusted me with their work during that time, so I worked hard to explain this to alleviate any potential discomfort they might have towards our company. Thankfully, when I left the company, I received a lot of congratulations and support. There were nothing but grateful things during my time there, and I won't forget the fact that I was part of that organization moving forward in whatever I do; I want to ensure that I don't become a burden to the company and will keep that in mind as I live my life."
Regarding the current situation, Son Eun-yu stated, "First of all, the steady salary has disappeared. After graduating, enrolling, graduating, and joining my job immediately, this is the first time since I was 4 years old that I am not affiliated with anything. I thought I would feel anxious, but rather I feel a lot more freedom, and fortunately, I still have nothing prepared, so nothing is in the works. I'm just in the preparation stage now. I've started to put more time into acting classes and practice. After quitting in July, I went to Vegas and then properly set up my profile. I also had the opportunity to audition and had a meeting with an agency. I don't think I'll have an agency for a while. Usually, when I leave, I prepare for the next step simultaneously, but this time I have to finish up before starting the preparation, so it feels a bit embarrassing not to have anything to share, but I at least wanted to say I've auditioned, and fortunately, I was able to share that my plans are going as intended."
He mentioned, "I've just been studying hard, practicing, and I want to seize opportunities, so I'm actively knocking on doors. In fact, I haven't mentioned what work I am doing for quite some time, and there are so many people who support me regardless of what I do, that sometimes it feels overwhelming with gratitude. So I want to take this opportunity to express my thankfulness to those who send their support. I know not everyone will look at this positively, and I'm prepared to hear voices of concern and criticism as I spend these months."
Son Eun-yu stated, "Originally, I had a motto. I thought of myself as someone who walks their own path. When it snows, walk on the snowy road; when it rains, walk on the rainy road. However, someone told me, after having worked in this field for 20 years, that they felt like they were still adrift in the vast sea even after being here for so long. That remark stuck with me. I have thought that everything I've been given so far; whenever I have a goal, I can just aim for it and break through to reach it, believing that I could walk that path regardless of the weather. However, I think it might be a bit different now. If I am drifting above the vast sea, how should I handle that? I should stop thinking of walking a path and instead think of myself as a sailboat floating on the sea."
He continued, "I feel that trying to reach a certain goal directly seems too stressful. I just float, trusting that the wind will blow. If the wind blows on my sail, I will flow accordingly. I thought to myself that if I manage to steer the rudder well, I might be able to advance in the direction I want, regardless of which way the wind blows. While I was pondering that, I saw a large sailboat that came to mind. I thought, 'Wow, a sailboat can be that big. Then I want to become a big sailboat.' If I become a big sailboat, I feel that even strong winds won't sway me too much. For now, I'm just a small sailboat with one sail, but I've decided to add more sails until I become a really big, strong, and magnificent sailboat."
He also stated, "Not only as a lawyer but also in the professions I considered beforehand, I often had to suppress and put aside my own skills to exhibit other qualities instead. However, I feel that this line of work invites scrutiny of my own skills and allows me to showcase them. I hope that I can continue to do well; however, it's a highly competitive industry with limited opportunities, so things might not go as planned. But I hope that when things don't go well, I can find a way to navigate through it. Right now, I find the period of effort and preparation very enjoyable, and I hope to bring something fun to share soon, but I'm not sure if I can do it quickly."
He expressed, "I think I've been calm because I haven't held my desperate dream hostage. So I feel anxious about the future. I've thought of myself as a calm person who doesn't get nervous; however, isn't this a real dream? So I feel how intense my desire is. If it's so intense, I might confront a version of myself that is different from how I've known myself. I might show myself feeling nervous and shaky. I've been contemplating such thoughts. But I also feel excited. Just thinking about challenging something I truly desire and that I want to invest my life into gives me chills and makes me really happy."
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