Heo Ga-yoon noted her attitude toward life has changed significantly since her brother's death.
On the 17th, a video titled 'The reason I left the idol industry and went to Bali (4Minute Heo Ga-yoon_If I'm being honest)' was released on the YouTube channel 'ch.Yeom Mi-sol.'
While active as a member of the girl group 4Minute, Heo Ga-yoon, who also pursued acting, received much love but suddenly vanished, sparking curiosity. Heo Ga-yoon's return came on the 28th of last month when she published her essay 'I became myself in the most unfamiliar sea' as a writer.
Heo Ga-yoon talked about her recent life, saying, "I'm not living in Korea right now; I'm living in Bali. It's been about two years now," and added, "When I was going through a tough time, member (former) Ji-yoon said, 'You need to go out and take a break,' and my mind and spirit just followed. I felt so good back then that I've been living like this ever since."
Heo Ga-yoon continued, "Before, I had my own symptoms that I was experiencing, but they magically disappeared. Toward the end of the trip, I slept really well. It had been so long, and because I enjoyed it, I did a second two-month stay in Bali. I felt so comfortable in Bali and wanted to know whether it was Bali that made my symptoms disappear, so I experimented and found that these symptoms, which had not gone away no matter what effort I made for years, vanished, and I was so amazed. So at the end of the two-month stay, I decided I wanted to live here, completely determined. As soon as I returned to Korea, I called my agency and asked them to terminate my exclusive contract, and they gladly agreed to let me go."
In particular, Heo Ga-yoon revealed that her attitude toward life changed after her brother passed away in 2020. She stated, "I often thought that it was okay to keep living like this, but when I think of my parents, a sense of responsibility weighs on me," and continued, "After experiencing my brother's situation, at some point, I felt alone, which created a burden. When I think of my parents, I feel anxious, and I quickly think that I need to earn a lot of money."
Heo Ga-yoon shared, "Before going to Bali, I suffered from insomnia and binge eating, and my parents found it frightening, so I started seeing a doctor. I thought it was an illness that I could only fix myself, but later my body broke down, leading to hypothyroidism and issues with my autoimmune system. The counselor said it was tough, but I seemed to be ignoring it. Thinking back, from the time I was 14, I pursued my dream of becoming a singer, living in various places and unconsciously controlling myself while watching the adults' reactions. I was engulfed in obsession, which eventually exploded."
Heo Ga-yoon said, "I've decided to let go now. I used to think that quitting being a singer or the work meant giving up. I wondered, 'Am I a person who gives up?' or 'How do others think of me?' But upon reflection, I thought, 'No, it's just that I can take a break for a bit.' Just changing that one thought that I hadn't ended everything made my heart feel so much more at ease. Now, when I'm asked if I'm active in the entertainment industry, I say, 'I'm just taking a break.'"
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