Model Jang Yoon-joo painfully revealed her struggles related to her family.
On 3rd, content titled "'Should I definitely have a child?' Until Lisa is born" was released on Jang Yoon-joo's YouTube channel 'Yoonjure Jang Yoon-joo.'
On this day, Jang Yoon-joo said, "When people think of 'ju' (주) in girls, they think of 'house' (주), or 'bead' (주), but I am 'pillar' (주). I'm just very strong. I'm 'the best' (윤) and a 'pillar' (주). Since I can be the best pillar, use 'pillar' (주)." She opened up saying, "I wanted a son."
Then, Jang Yoon-joo noted, "I wanted the second to be a son, but it was a daughter, and 'this is the last one now,' I really wanted this child to be a son, but once again, it was a daughter." She continued, "So I always heard at home, 'This child should have been a son.' My mom often talked to the neighborhood people saying, 'That is her. The youngest. I wished she had been a son, but she's that daughter,' and I felt very embarrassed and very upset and sad back then."
Jang Yoon-joo said, "At that time, I didn't even think to tell my mom, 'Mom, don't talk like that,'" adding, "I kept dating without stopping, but I had the same bad pattern. I have the habit of ignoring boys. It's not because they did something wrong; it's just something I fundamentally possess."
Jang Yoon-joo shared, "Then when I turned thirty, after another breakup and feeling really hurt, there was a pastor I really respect, and we prayed together. During the prayer, he suddenly asked, 'Sister Yoon-joo, do you acknowledge that you are a woman?'" She revealed, "At that moment, I burst into tears. I said, 'No, I don't like being a woman. I've never thought of myself as a woman.' After I said that at thirty, I was in shock."
Jang Yoon-joo asked her mother, 'Do you remember what you said to me when I was young?' and mentioned, 'Mom, I don't like being a girl. I feel like I've never been able to live acknowledging that I'm a woman, but now I feel like I have to acknowledge that I am a woman. Please help me. I hope you can pray for me too.' She said this very difficultly, and afterwards, both Jang Yoon-joo and her mother held back tears.
[Photo] Jang Yoon-joo's YouTube video screen capture.
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