Actress Kim Sae-ron's late mother has revealed a handwritten letter full of longing addressed to her daughter.

Kim Sae-ron's mother delivered the handwritten letter through the YouTube channel Garosero Research Institute. On the 20th, the Garosero Research Institute held a live broadcast under the title "[Exclusive] Kim Sae-ron's family reveals 'tearful statement letter.'"

Kim Se-yeon said, "Last night, I was trembling all over as I met the bereaved family members. I felt sorry for the bereaved family member, who said that her mother had become nothing but bone. She cried and lamented, 'Do we have to mutilate my daughter like this?' Therefore, we originally requested an emergency press conference around 5 p.m. today, but the mother said, 'I can’t possibly do that; I feel like I'm going to die. Is dying the only way to stop this suffering?' Although the mother couldn't hold a press conference, she sent a handwritten letter," and revealed a three-page handwritten note.

In the letter, Kim Sae-ron's mother wrote, "My beloved daughter Sae-ron, are you in a warm place? Are you okay? Today, I am again suffering unbearably from headaches and a heavy heart. Winter is ending, and it is said that warm spring is coming, but my frozen heart has no intention of warming up. I can’t throw away any of your clothes or your belongings, so I keep holding onto them as they are. I still can't wash the pajamas you wore, clinging to me with your lingering scent and unable to sleep."

She continued, "What is money that I couldn’t be by your side a little longer? I couldn’t be there for your final moments. Looking back, all that remains is regret. I still hear your chattering voice right beside me, making me jump up with a start."

She also added, "Do not post pictures of yourself. Avoid people. Don’t go out late at night. Don’t drink. I realize that I continually told you to be careful and not to do things as you tried to endure your daily life. I’m sorry, daughter... I thought that stopping you was protecting you. I’m sorry for telling you that I trust you, yet preventing you and trying to hide things from you," and "It must have been hard for you. How difficult it must have been. For three years, how many times did your heart break? Even if you just let me admire your beauty, the time lost is precious."

Full text of the letter.

My beloved daughter Sae-ron, are you in a warm place? Are you okay? Today, I am again suffering unbearably from headaches and a heavy heart. Winter is ending, and it is said that warm spring is coming, but my frozen heart has no intention of warming up. I can’t throw away any of your clothes or your belongings, so I keep holding onto them as they are. I still can't wash the pajamas you wore, clinging to me with your lingering scent and unable to sleep.

You were crying out that you were going to die, so have you finally found peace? You joked that if you died, many friends would come, and indeed many came to visit... You always had a childlike quality, but I realized my daughter lived so well. It provided great comfort. There were so many who knew my daughter’s true self. Did you see all those who came to visit? What is money? I could have been by your side a little longer... I couldn’t witness your final moments because I was busy working. Were you scared?

Looking back, all that remains is regret... just suffering the whole time. Perhaps I couldn't accept that you, trying to let go of the world, would become someone like Kim Sae-ron, as portrayed by the news. You promised me you would live, that you would somehow continue on.

Mom, should we go for a walk at Han River Park today? Mom, should we go play badminton today? Mom, should we go volunteer with my aunt and the raccoon today? Mom, I painted a bright picture just like you said. Mom, I want to eat cucumber cold soup. Mom, please make some stir-fried anchovies. Mom, turn on the TV. Mom, turn on the light. Mom, turn on the washing machine. Mom, I'm scared when it's quiet and dark. Mom, mom, mom... I still hear your chattering voice right beside me, making me jump up with a start.

Do not post pictures of yourself. Avoid people. Don’t go out late at night. Don’t drink... I realize that I continually told you to be careful and not to do things as you tried to endure your daily life. I’m sorry, daughter. I thought that stopping you was protecting you. I’m sorry for telling you that I trust you, yet preventing you and trying to hide things from you. Now you are asking me to keep explaining myself. Why? I simply couldn’t let you go like this. I just wanted you to apologize for making me a liar and hoped that such things would never happen again. What returned were just denials of my existence and demands for explanations.

It must have been hard for you. How difficult it must have been. For three years, how many times did your heart break? Even if you just let me admire your beauty, the time lost is precious.. Don’t worry. Even if the world doesn’t know, mom knows. We know, friends know, and everyone who has known Sae-ron knows. And I’m okay too. You said it yourself. "Don’t worry, mom. Even if the world doesn’t know, I know." It must have been very noisy, right? I’m sorry, Ron. I’ll make sure to let you go in peace.

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